RobinC
11-20-2009, 08:24 PM
Hello everyone!
I am so glad that I finally have access to this forum. I have been reading posts daily to keep me inspired and focused.
Today is day 4 and so far I have been doing well. I am experiencing headaches and fatigue but i was prepared for that possibility (thanks to all who provided that insight). I discovered very early that I have to have all three meals prepped and ready to go before I head to bed the night before or I am at serious risk of deviating.
I always think I will be home before I actually make it so have been late for my third meal each night except tonight. Not fun as then I am so hungry I can barely think.
I have begun to appreciate how little permission I have granted myself in the past to take care of just me. I became accutely aware of this when I was preparing today's meals last night. It was close to 10 PM and I was just wrapping up. I had not made dinner for my family as I had gone to the grocery store to get some different foods and right now it is so tempting to eat what I prepare for them. I had erroneously assumed that my daughter was going to be hanging out at friends like she usually does. I was consumed with guilt that I had not taken care of her or my husband (this daughter is in college so I realize how silly I was being). I began apologizing profusely and saying that I would make them their dinners and lunches as well when I prepare mine. It usually takes me an hour start to finish with dishes and all just to prepare my meals. I haven't really found my system yet.
Thank God for my husband. He said to not worry about them. They can take care of themselves and that this is my time to take care of me. I almost cried it was such a relief.
Between being in the classroom as a student teacher, going to college and everything that goes along with that, I was feeling overwhelmed with the time crunch.
I am far from reformed though.... tonight as I was eating my meal, my daughter walked up with a sparkle in her eye and her mouth gaping open like a baby bird. This is a game that we have played since they were babies so I smiled and gave her a bite... and then a second one. THEN I realized "Oh Darn It!" Since everything is weighed I couldn't just make myself more!
Lesson Learned!
Have a great evening and I look forward to 'meeting' everyone here!
I am so glad that I finally have access to this forum. I have been reading posts daily to keep me inspired and focused.
Today is day 4 and so far I have been doing well. I am experiencing headaches and fatigue but i was prepared for that possibility (thanks to all who provided that insight). I discovered very early that I have to have all three meals prepped and ready to go before I head to bed the night before or I am at serious risk of deviating.
I always think I will be home before I actually make it so have been late for my third meal each night except tonight. Not fun as then I am so hungry I can barely think.
I have begun to appreciate how little permission I have granted myself in the past to take care of just me. I became accutely aware of this when I was preparing today's meals last night. It was close to 10 PM and I was just wrapping up. I had not made dinner for my family as I had gone to the grocery store to get some different foods and right now it is so tempting to eat what I prepare for them. I had erroneously assumed that my daughter was going to be hanging out at friends like she usually does. I was consumed with guilt that I had not taken care of her or my husband (this daughter is in college so I realize how silly I was being). I began apologizing profusely and saying that I would make them their dinners and lunches as well when I prepare mine. It usually takes me an hour start to finish with dishes and all just to prepare my meals. I haven't really found my system yet.
Thank God for my husband. He said to not worry about them. They can take care of themselves and that this is my time to take care of me. I almost cried it was such a relief.
Between being in the classroom as a student teacher, going to college and everything that goes along with that, I was feeling overwhelmed with the time crunch.
I am far from reformed though.... tonight as I was eating my meal, my daughter walked up with a sparkle in her eye and her mouth gaping open like a baby bird. This is a game that we have played since they were babies so I smiled and gave her a bite... and then a second one. THEN I realized "Oh Darn It!" Since everything is weighed I couldn't just make myself more!
Lesson Learned!
Have a great evening and I look forward to 'meeting' everyone here!